Day 3! Today was a more trying day. We had a strong start this morning and were very determined to finish. As the day worn on, we encountered some problems and our rhythm was thrown. I had a few difficult moments and was really discouraged. But, we pushed through and crafted our attack plan for tomorrow.
I’m now two days without talking to Shana. I’m a little lost. My heart is not sure where it is. I miss her. I still feel some hurt from our conversation on Sunday. I know there was truth, but truth can hurt. I realize more each day that I have a worth problem. To be honest, I struggle with worth in the world’s eyes, with my musical ability, with my Father, with my abilities as a man, with Shana, with me in general as a person. I feel second string. Good enough to get by, but hollowed out inside. I don’t want to live this way. I’ve given up so many times today. How do I live like more than a conquerer?
Some interesting events today. Papo, our friend helping at the church, has the greatest hiccup in the world! Bimbo cookies (breakfast!), the rain, clouds moving through the hills, wonderful food, seeing the lighthouse, the beach, the warmth of the Caribbean, the vastness of God, watching the border patrol boats and helicopter, Glynn Rogers, I’m tired and my pants are wet, Telemundo, the parking lot sign (intelligence!). This has been a fun trip!
