Struggle

First its a stumble, then maybe a kick. Eventually, somehow it leads to you lying on the ground and wondering how you got here and why it hurts so much. Life is a struggle. And if you are reading this and haven’t learned that at one point or another, watch out. I began my fast today. I thought it might be a more spiritually enlightening time, but so far it hasn’t been… or has it? I’ve felt more clear headed today and so I may have opened my mouth to much. I’m struggling. I’m gonna be honest. Maybe I’m too honest too often, but I just need to voice that. I don’t know how to balance. I don’t. I’m lost. I’m at this place and I don’t know where to go. Have I stepped way ahead of myself? I’m I just completely incapable? Have I been filled with potential or to be just that my entire life, potential? Have I fooled myself? Is it all honestly really worth it? Am I making any kind of difference?