Hitting the curb

Life sometimes throws you curves. Today once again has just been a busy day. I’m ready for a slow down and I don’t want it take over my life. (interesting side bar) Since when did the digital transition move to June? Hmm. So, back to busyness. Had a nice day though, had a chance to hang out with a friend. I’m so grateful for our church. We had a leadership meeting this evening and it was quite interesting. We decided to take it on the road and go to a restaurant in McDonough. Well, that was an interesting move. We basically survived a tornado. The weather was really exciting and the sky was insanely beautiful. I feel secure now that if our leadership can survive a storm like that, we can weather anything. This is the most random and pointless blog tonight, I hope I didn’t waste your time. Oh, and don’t hit the curb.

It was just a Tuesday.

I feel so distracted. Do you ever feel that way? It’s like the life I really want to live is passing by and yet I’m still living it. I enjoyed watching the rain tonight. I love to ride in the rain at night. The reason is, you don’t have to turn on your wipers because of the dark. It’s so nice to see the rain to just fall in random place and just glide down the front of the windshield. Somedays, I honestly wish my life was like photoshop. This way, I could change my opacity to 0 and no one would see me. Or maybe in my transparency I could see through myself and to what really matters. There are so many things going on that need my full attention and yet I’m still distracted. But the thing is, I’m distracted by all the things that need my attention. My body and mind just crave to shut down and disconnect, but I can’t. Maybe it partially has to do with a lack of sleep. But how do we focus. Maybe I’m just out of focus. Need to adjust.

Octo…

So as I sit here and watch dateline, my thoughts are somewhat full. They are doing a special on the octuplets mom and I question my own ethical and moral beliefs. Is it right?  There are so many questions and perhaps I could (and even started to) delve into an opinionated rant on what I believe and what I think she should have done. I will have to chew on this for sometime. 

Speaking of thinking, perhaps this can be a good segue into “evaluating”. This has been and is becoming a great time for evaluating. In discipleship tonight, I challenged my friend to evaluate himself. As I have challenged him, I will be doing the same for myself. Perhaps you can be challenged to do the same to you. Who are you? What defines you? What motivates or drives what you do now? 

I’ll leave you with a short deal on Proverbs that may or many not be encouragement….

“The Lord decides what a person will do; no one understands what his life is all about. It’s dangerous to promise something to God too quickly. After you’ve thought about it, it may be too late. The Lord looks deep inside people and searches through their thoughts.”  Man, we don’t have a clue and yet we make bold claims to God without serious consideration of what that commitment looks like. God knows us.

I’m going to Disney World!

Ok, once again, a deceiving title. Nope, I didn’t discover some small little man at the end of rainbow who blessed me with a truckload of money. And I didn’t win the superbowl. I had just been craving a victory that deserved a “I’m going to Disney World” at the end of it. It’s funny how a victory may come. I look for it in so many other things we it usually comes in a small package that I overlooked. Someone gave me a fantastic compliment today. One that for them is a life changing experience. I cannot feel, 1) extremely honored and 2) extremely happy. I am going to Disney World. Right now. In my dreams. Good Night! 

Oh and coolness when I told my nephew I loved him and he smiled like the biggest smile ever. Rock on!

“Everybody wants to be a bodybuilder, but don’t nobody wanna lift no heavy a** weights.”

I’ve been trying to write this blog for the last half hour and I keep getting interrupted, bah! I love the title (there of course is a story which is at the bottom ((and I tried to sensor, but I didn’t, so I apologize if your offended by any use of language))). Ok, now that I’ve thoroughly abused the parentheses and learned there usage in the singular tense, we can continue. Or not, a side note, thanks for all the reads today, I felt special. Moving ever so slowly along…

I was driving home tonight and really began thinking about the truth of the title of this blog, “Everybody wants to be a bodybuilder, but don’t nobody wanna lift no heavy a** weights.” I just realized how true this statement is and how it can be applied to multiple life subjects. For instance, everyone wants to go to heaven but nobody wants to die or everybody wants a truckload of money but don’t nobody wanna get an honest job or everybody wants a cheeseburger but don’t nobody wanna kill a cow or everybody wants Jesus to save them, but don’t nobody want to spend time with him. I’ve just been thinking this direction a lot tonight and how it correlates to my current journey. I’m totally in such a flux process of still growing up. I mean, to some degree we all our, but the choices only get harder from day to day and they aren’t choices you can just avoid. I suppose that life is simply based around choices themselves and we aren’t always going to make the right ones. It comes down to it that we shall inherently be that who we choose to be. Whether we choose to push ourselves or choose to slack or whether we choose to do right or choose wrong. I know that I have and will continue to make bad and poor choices, but I want to make more good choices than bad. I want to choose daily to spend time with God and choose to become the man I’m supposed to be. In the end, we choose till we can’ t choose no more, but God has the ultimate control. Perhaps if we asked for His guidance in our choices, maybe our lives would be a lot different. Maybe we could choose right more consistently.

This blog went a totally different direction than I thought. I know that some think these things are stupid and on some level I guess I can feel that way at times. But hopefully my thoughts have made some sort of difference in the way you think. I pray that you will choose to choose.

(*Title of blog Story- If anyone actually cares. So I decided to google my name today and discover that I was fourth on the list at google for the search “Justin Biggs” woot! Anyway, in my lameness I announced my sad plight of googling my name on facebook. It doing so, it sparked a philosophy professor from my college to proceed to google my name. Upon his doing so, he discovered my alter ego who is a workout guy with a blog titled… “Everybody wants to be a bodybuilder, but don’t nobody wanna lift no heavy a** weights.” THE END.

I daydream of punching small animals.

Ok, so this is not true, but a line from an amazingly clever ad I saw tonight. Maybe I like too many things in life. But I like life I guess. Watched the superbowl tonight with some church folk. It’s the first time I watched a NFL game in about two years. I think what made it the best was the fact of the company that was there. It’s nice to hang out with people and just have a good time and a good laugh. This week is going to be tough and quite heavy, and I’m not sure I’m ready for it. But (lot’s of “buts” tonight) I will never know till I try and it’s not like I can avoid Monday, so here I come! I may make my plans, but God is only the only one capable of seeing them through…